"Creative PMS"

I've a confession to make.......I am currently suffering from "Creative PMS".

Its a period where I get cranky and have weird mood swings(that range from sad to sadder)whenever I finish drawing a piece of artwork or don't draw at all and where my creative juices seem to be flowing out of me....drop by drop. So its like female PMS....you know, only without the icky part and anything actually flowing out....of me....oh and it does'nt come once a month,it lasts anywhere from 1 month to a year.

I've noticed a negative trend in my drawing nowadays.......I have to spend at least 2 weeks to a month completing a single A4 Size drawing from start to finish and I'm NEVER satisfied with a single piece of artwork I've drawn,after completing it........its only two or three months later,when I can look back at a piece of drawing and think "Hey....it's not so bad after all"

Gone are the days when I'm able to sit on my butt for 9 hrs a day(usually from 10 pm to about 6 or 7 am...I work best at night) and just complete a page of fully rendered artwork every day for an entire month.....and be satisfied with the work I've produced.

Nowadays......I spend so damn long on a single page of art, it takes me like 1 week to do do the planning of the drawing, produce hundreds of different rough sketches and identify one i'm happy with, it takes me another 2 weeks to slowly and meticulously draw the final artwork in pencil( I pencil bits and pieces of the artwork for like 1-2 hrs a day) and it takes me another week to ink the entire drawing extremely carefully.......every line must be perfect, the slightest flaw or mistake will annoy me to no end...

You See, there's a difference between the opinion of someone looking at the arwork with an untrained eye and the opinion of the person who draws it......I can show any person on the street a general piece of my artwork and chances are,they would think it is pretty well done......but then to the person(me) who actually spends a month drawing the piece of work.....every single flaw and mistake that is made in the artwork is super evident and glaring to me,especially during the period when the artwork has just been completed......sad man....

Luckily for me, I've found some "Creative tampons" to re-absorb the creative juices flowing out during my "Creative PMS"........below are a list of my favorite artists' websites and looking at ttheir artwork or books really fires me up and make me feeling like drawing my butt off once again....

Bruce Timm- Creative director of the Batman and Justice League animated series:

http://www.popcultureshock.com/timm/

Neal Adams- The definitive Batman artist and one of the older and best comicbook artist ever:

http://www.nealadams.com/Sketches/batman.html

Alex Ross- The best comics painter in the industry...accept no substitutes:

http://www.alexrossart.com/archives.html

Jim Lee- The most popular artist in the industry at this point in time:

http://groups.msn.com/artofjimlee/gallery.msnw

All of them are different but heckuva good.....haiz...If I have 1/3 of any of their artistic abilities, I would be one happy, hairy chinese mofo!!

Still I suppose I should'nt feel too sad, No one else in the World would be creative enough to think of using stuff like PMS,tampons and somehow relate and use them in a discussion about art and creativity ....no one but ME!!!

I'm the most creative crapper in the world....Period.

HAHHAHA....there I go again.....